I've decided

after much looking around to create a discussion forum for parents like me. Who have kids entering or already enlisted in the armed forces. I sure hope that any military moms will pass the link around, so that we can have a nice support forum.

Here is the link Parents of Soldiers Forum

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Let the freaking about freaking commence

Yes boys and girls, I am beginning the pre-freakout...

Nicks recruiter called the other day and I was asking him for info on when Nick grads basic (hotels when, all that stuff) and then I asked him if I was to take Nick to St. Louis MEPS or if he was. He said he would pick Nick up and take him., but that I wasn't allowed to cry. Now I had thought about how I would feel the day my son left, but I hadn't gotten as far as I might possibly loose it. I told him I couldn't promise anything, with a tremble in my voice. Its real, it's really real. My son is a adult and will be leaving soon. I am scared. I am proud. I am worried. One day at a time.. One day at a time.

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The countdown

The mental countdown has begun in this house, for all of us now, not just Nick. 25 days till he leaves for basic. We had pictures taken yeserday, and as I look at the proofs, I see just how young Nick is. I'm scared. I read the papers and news online, and I see where the army isn't meeting its recruiting goals, where recruiters are being charged with lying and threatening kids to sign up. I pray that my trust in Nicks recruiter is not misplaced. That Nick will recieve the training promised. That I wont have to worry so much this first year that he will have to go to Iraq. That if he gets his promised trainging he wont be in so much danger.

I'm sending my baby off. 18 or not he is still my son. The son I love dearly.

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You have graduated!

Congratulations my boy. I am so proud of you. Your named was called to stand for recognition as one of the top scoring psa (standardised testing) students. And when your name was called to recieve your diploma we went wild, as did another group of ppl across the gym. I wrote you a letter for your graduation and would post it here but want to keep it between us.



My baby boy all grown up. The time has flown, and soon you will belong to Uncle Sam for the next SIX years.. I'm going to miss you so very much son. I love you.

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Too long since last update

Its been a long time since I updated this blog, but time is moving forward, and here we are now with a month left before my son leaves for basic, and day before his highschool graduation.

I am so very proud of my son, He has already acomplished things I never have. He has held a job since he was 16. He went to prom. He is graduating from highschool. Doesn't seem like he should be this old or at this point in his life. Where did my baby boy go? I must have blinked, and he grew up.

He is starting to worry a bit about leaving, that is normal. He worries that his little brother wont remember him. I think this is his biggest fear. He really loves that little boy. I am worried that Nick wont want to come home. I worry about my baby, that is not a baby anymore.

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